Goodbye.

Goodbye to my lovely honeymoon.

Goodbye to my lovely home.

Goodbye to my lovely family members.

:(

sometimes you just don't realise every words you express might hurt the people the most.

blaming is not the only way will do.

think before you said.

and it can make a big difference.

sometime you just cant blame others

you just can blame yourself.

because the decision is yours, but not others.

be responsible for it

and you make a change.

< /  3

I feel the pain :(

i  

feel

 extremely

 absolutely 

definitely

 exceedingly

 immensely 

very 

painful

 on

 my 

swollen

 gums (牙龈)

blame the wisdom tooth   :(

!!!!!! 

T____________T

my reunion dinner gone!

potluck party gone!

CNY GONE!

Second attack!

currently it is still in exam week as my previous post mentioned.

it's monday already and its actually consider the 1st day of exam week for most of the people.

for me, i still have only last paper to sit on the coming wednesday.

just two weeks ago, before study week, i have been sick for almost a week.

been consulted doctor in hospital yet still cant recover from it!

i hate to be weak cuz i really dun like to consult doctor!

prefer to fight against the sick with my immune system n not just only rely on the medicine.

however, after my stupid exam - Strategic Management, i have been falling into sick again this time.

a serious one. the more i wish to be tough, the more i become weaker.

perhaps i dun drink enough water, lack of sleep, eat too much spicy food and caused the condition i feeling bad right now. fever, sore throat, cough, flu all come to visit me at the same time.

wth?! 2 times in a month? i still have not even touch a single page for my next subject. feeling dizzy and energyless for whole day. how could i pay concentration on my revision?

without hesitation, i phoned my mum and asked her to bank-in money to me due to lack of $ i have for consulting doc. i told her i was sick again. guess what? my family come to kampar in purpose just to bring me for doctor consultation. no word can describe how i felt that time. Grandma prepared some insipid food for me as the throat is killing me badly while mum prepared some fruits n bitter tea for me as well. thanks! how lovely they are :')

after the consultation, doctor said my throat is in serious condition already as it has few huge ulcers inside, n it caused me cant recover from my fever. he even told me if i still not feel any better, he advised me to have an injection on the next day. @.@ omg!

just wish to get recover soon from all these :( and i dunwan to get injection anymore.

btw, thanks to my frens who gave concern during i was sick.

i will get well soon.  C=

雨过天晴

Another screw day for myself. just managed to know the coursework mark for BE today. the marks obviously shown the lack of efforts i put for the midterm as well as the assignment. i really need to put more efforts on it for my finals otherwise i really screw up my finals. i cant afford to screw it.

z

wake up early in the morning just to expect my academic advisor will be around in her office early so that i can consult her for the AA session (academic advisory session). since she already take leave from monday until yesterday. make me cannot register on time. i shouldn't blame her. =( stupid lousy UTAR management. provided us a recommended fixed timetable but at the same time request students to register for their respective subjects. (so free izzit?)

I was like "WTF?" when i was get to inform that we are going to turn into flexi students for the coming semester. @@ ji dan gao. 

note: need to seek for adviser before do the subject registration (most lame)

okay. continue the story. the advisor kept nagging as we met her for last minute once she saw me and my fren while she was telling me that she will have teaching class from 8am straight until 12.30pm. thus she cant meet me for the AA session and asked me to find her after 2pm. oh shit. i need to wait again. my class ended at 9am. 5 hours man. plus today was the subject registration for Accounting course and Business Administration course. the server totally JAM for few hours in a row.

note: my adviser doesn't know anything about the flexi matters until i told her.

z

lastly i managed to register for the two subjects after the AA session and few hours traffic jam on the SERVER. (strategic management & financial and monetary systems)

HOWEVER,

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there is another subject (Pendidikan Moral) which already taken by another courses already full -no more available places for me. :( 

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the so-called fixed recommended timetable for us. 

8am class for four days TT

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spot the difference?

register according to the recommended fixed timetable

just wish that there is a place to fit me in on the short semester so that i have no chance to see this subject on the last long semester(critical semester).

oh ya, officially announced it comes to an end of this semester.

STUDY WEEK NOW!

timetable for my final exam:

13/09/2010 [monday] : Business Ethics 2-430pm

20/09/2010 [monday]: Portfolio Management 2-430pm

25/09/2010 [saturday]: Financial Markets and Regulation 2-430pm

28/09/2010 [tuesday] : Commercial Bank Management 9-1130am

picture to end my post

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希望雨过总是会天晴

i need a screwdriver.

THINGS usually tend to screw up together at the same time as well as i screwup myself. DONT ASK ME WHY. because the answer will turn out to be~

a question mark.

well, as i mentioned in the earliest post i don't wish emo post appearing on my blog. but sometimes is really boh bian. and here is the best place to express those shity feelings. imma recently facing dilemma no matter in what aspect. that's just what i think lah. EMO what also can link together wan. negative thoughts keep popping out from my mind. what i hope now is to be more optimistic and remove all the negative thoughts from my brain. How good if our brain can just simply press or click a "DELETE" button and automatically will be deleted from our MEMORY? i know it's impossible unless it is AMNESIA. @@

anyone help me to solve my problems please? TT

BIG BIG SIGH. finals is just around the corner. as usual the STUDY mode is still in OFF mode and i have not even started any revision at all. i shall pack up my USELESS mood now and turn ON my study mode. otherwise DAPAO BALIK KAMPUNG! sometimes i really don't understand why the stupid U likes to made mess all the things. FIXED timetable then FIXED lah. why suddenly change to FLEXI while there is still got 2 semester left for those FIXED students. i don't wish to complain here, but i really cannot bear with this kind of management that bring troublesome to students. ishhh. suan le. The law is always right and we have to obey the law. [sudd missing namewee's songs]

there's nothing much i can do now. pohpi everything will be alright soon :) and i make a promise to myself. don think so much.

i must.

life's still going on~

notitlepost

Basically my blogpost seldom appears negative thinking post it is because i dont wish to recall back those unhappy things whenever i read back my old post. sort of avoiding maybe. perhaps i wish i only remember happy stuffs instead of remembering those unhappy stuff in case to influence my mood! 


yeah, there is always ups and downs, joys and despair in our daily life. it's unavoidable uncertainty we may face in life. This is so called Life. 
life can be challenging! 
life can be boring or even Life can be miserable! 
just like what i feel now. everything screw up together at the same time. feel miserable with all these!


I dont like the feelings!  no more struggling please. 

i wrote this piece of post doesn't mean i am emo now. it's sorts of my way to relieve my feelings AND express my sentiment here. it's 4.25am now and im still blogging here. it seems like decades i din blog during midnite! and i found the feeling is just nice IGNORE my eyes are very heavy now. plus the line is super smooooth. double like.

sigh! i miss home. not able to go back to the hometown since week 4 due to few tons of works!....stressful to the max. 4 assignments + 4 midterms + 1 final year project! can die. total journals have been read already exceeeeeeed 500 journals (hiperbola). no choice lahh. last year is like tat.. 

i need to be stronger. i just cant be strong now. and i know im weak.

tears are just useless at these moments!!

i think i should sleep now. tmr 12pm lecture class. :)

nitez!

p/s: i ♥ my new room :)

Thoughts

Suddenly,
I felt everything changed.
Many things had changed.
Does it mean by fate?
Fate control us or we control our fate?
I have no idea.

Life is unpredictable.
We always cant expect or predict what will happen tomorrow.
We can only try our best to appreciate or treasure every little single thing happen in our life.
It may be our lessons, memories, or even experiences...

No matter what,
we still have to continue our life.
God's hand is in everything, we can leave everything to God.
Because everything happen for a reason.

Last but not least,
FAMILY is still the most important people in our life.
They are the only who support us always no matter what mistakes we had done.
They wont betray us.
They love us always and forever.

Be tough girl, u can do it!
学习放下



Logging off,
charyene

Get Well Soon

Just came back from Yin Onn(仁安) to consult a herbalist doctor (in malay so called Tabib Cina).

I have been coughed for almost 5 weeks n before this i have already consult to a western doctor. 

Cant sleep well every night because normally i will cough seriously during midnight.

Herbalist Doctor: "How long have u cough?"

Me: "Hmm...almost 5 weeks ady."

Herbalist Doctor: "Wah, why dun u consult to doctor earlier?"

Mum: "Oh, cuz she is studying in Kampar."

Herbalist Doctor: "Oh.."(start to take my pulse)

Me: "Doc, how is it?"

Herbalist Doctor: "Ur pulse is very weak, shud eat more nutritious food. Anyway, will u feel dizzy or faint easily?"

Me: "Hmm, not really.."

Herbalist Doctor: what is ur phlegm colour?

Me: mm..i think is white.

Herbalist Doctor："The phlegm will turn from green to yellow and yellow will turn to white. So, u have wet cough. U cant consume fruits, cold drinks & "leong sui" for some time." (same as wat the western doctor said). 

Me: "Sigh...means i only can drink sky juice?"

Mum: "Ya la, if not u cant get well from coughing."

Me: "okay den.."

Medicine in liquid- 20ml (3 times per day)

Pill - 4 tablets (3 times per day)

OMG!! 

Can u see the difference between Western medicine & traditional chinese medicine? 

Dunno how long i can finish it =/

SIGH..WISH TO GET WELL SOON!

Listening to: I'm Yours By Jason Marz

=(

God bless papa, theng theng & lily.

Untitled

A strong feeling comes toward me.
I don't know what is going on
It's hard to describe my feelings now.
There were all kinds of thoughts running through my mind.
Perhaps i am not rational now, i will be calm later,
and i know what do i want.
I wont blame for anyone because it's my choice.
I will not think anything for now,
everything happens for a reason.
God has arranged the life for me.

When we know that God’s hand is in everything, we can leave everything in God’s hand.

Love yourself more than others.

Last Day of February - Black Saturday

Today,
I've my marketing midterm from 10 to 11.
I tried so hard to concentrate on my paper.
Finally, I finished my paper on time.
Thanks God.






When I came back from uni,
my stomach was extremely painful,
so I decided to take a nap just to ignore the pain,
but I couldn' t sleep well as the pain was killing me..






So,
I woke up and washed my dirty clothes.
After that,
I searched info for my assignment and I completed it lastly.






Now,
It's raining heavily and I cant go for the discussion for my assignment.
Sigh..
We have to postpone our discussion again...
Wat a black Saturday for me!!




Suddenly,
I miss my home very much,
I miss every single person in my home very much..


Papa, Mama, Ama, Lily, Theng theng, Boy boy..

I miss all of u

..

Sleeplessness Night

I couldnt sleep tonight,
a very sad and down night.
I sleep badly.

My mind keep recalling about the past.
I shud forget about the past because it was over ady,
but i just... I just cant stop myself from thinking about it.

There were all kinds of thoughts running through my mind.
I hate the feelings. How i wished nothing had happened,

because they do hurt me.

In fact, I am a gal wit a weak individuality.
I am not tat tough as u think.
I might be look cheerful, Yet, the past has left me a deep scar.

Nevertheless,
my sis adviced me,
She told me that,
" Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened".
I felt much better after she consoled me.
Thanks my beloved sister-Charmaine.

I love You, Sister.